“I love you, dud!” I hollered after my 3-year-old son as he blissfully skipped back to play with his brothers. (It’s unfortunate that while I had meant to say, “I love you, bud!” or “I love you, darling!” it had come out as a rather unflattering mixture of the two words. *cringe*)
He had come to me just a few seconds earlier wailing and holding his hand up. Despite his blubbering, I was able to figure out that one of his brothers had bit one of his fingers. I kissed his hand and tried to send him on his way again. But he continued crying and pointed to the exact spot on the finger where he’d gotten hurt. I kissed the exact spot and immediately he ran off, content knowing that his pain had been acknowledged. I marveled at how he was seemingly no longer aware of the hurt that had been inflicted upon him.
Sometimes the best help we can receive is for our pain to be acknowledged.
I wonder how this situation would have developed if I had looked at him callously and said, “Well, why did you let your brother do that?” Or, “Why didn’t you pull your hand away before it could enter your brother’s mouth?” Or, “Well, that was silly of you!” Or, “It probably doesn’t hurt nearly as bad as you’re making it out to be. I don’t see any blood!”
How would he have felt? Would the situation have been resolved? Would the focus have shifted? I’ll bet you he’d be tempted to squeeze the finger until there was blood — trying to convince me that he was really hurt.
Has anyone who has no clue about your painful journey ever told you what you are doing wrong in your effort to reduce pain or get a diagnosis? Have you ever felt that your pain was minimized by others simply because you hadn’t been officially diagnosed with your disease? Have you ever feared that your lack of energy comes across as laziness?
Has a healthcare professional ever told you that because of lifestyle choices you’ve made in the past, it’s partially your fault for ending up with the disease you’re facing? Or, equally disheartening, has anyone ever suggested that because your pain is invisible and always shifting to different areas of your body, your issues must be in your head?
My answer to each of those questions is “YES!” I am guessing that many others on this AS journey have faced similar invalidation from both friends and healthcare professionals alike.
Our disease is uncommon. As a result, not many people can relate to the physical pain or emotions that people with AS symptoms face. One day we wonder if we’re a healthy person, and the next we struggle to get out of bed due to pain or fatigue. One day our right sacroiliac joint hurts, and the next it’s our left shoulder. Frankly, others must wonder if we just can’t make up our minds.
My friend, what you need on your journey are people who listen to your concerns, acknowledge your ailment, and validate your pain. It doesn’t matter if these people are family, friends, healthcare professionals, or virtual acquaintances — they will become such an important part of your support system.
It isn’t until you find those people who don’t need to be convinced of your pain that you’ll be able to stop dwelling on your pain and work toward a better way of coping with your disease.
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